Um.. okay, well somehow I have flown past the last 17 years of my life and have landed in my final year of high school. Not quite sure how that happened.
I’m still convinced that I’m that annoying 12 year old girl who likes to do cartwheels in her backyard.
Sadly, a time machine has not been invented yet so my escape route from almost adult life is basically non existent. EEK…
Alright, am I the only one who is totally freaking out about the whole senior year thing right now. First there are the things about senior year that society has placed in our minds. You will have so much freedom, you will be with your friends 24/7, and this year will forever live in your mind.
Okay but I don’t know about you but just those 3 things sounds like a lot of pressure. Especially when the reality is you don’t have your full license, all your friends work everyday, and that means basically the only memories that will live in your mind forever is of you sitting in your room staring at your computer screen working on homework.
NOW THAT, Will not do it for me. So here I am turning to my blog yet again to vent, this time about my fears and aspirations for senior year. (P.S. Got some inspiration for this post from Silvermess.com written by the wonderful Rachel. be sure to check out her blog, so creative!)
#1 | Fear – Loosing Friendships
Now I’m sure this is something that all of us new seniors have or will think about at some point this year. What happens after high school? Everyone gets spilt up and goes their own ways, more than half of the people you see every day will disappear never to be seen again, unless of course you go to your high school reunion in 10-20 years from now. Luckily I have had such a tight nit group of friends for the past 7-8 years of my life, I’m pretty sure it is going to be almost impossible for us to loose communication.
#2 | Aspiration – Documenting EVERYTHING
Yes I am going to become one of those annoying people that pauses everyone just to take a picture. There is no way I am going to forget about anything. In fact I have started a high school scrapbook ( Yes i know how lame that sounds but bear with me), I am filling up everything from 2015-2017,because honestly I don’t know where any of the photos from 9th grade or the beginning of 10th have gone haha( Kinda a good thing too because no one should ever see those photos of me anyway). I will most definitely be showing ya’ll the final product at the end of my senior year 😉
#3 | Fear – Money
Unless you are a Kardashian and are extremely wealthy, you are going to worry about money. Currently I have no job, and am broke, so getting a job this year is my #1 priority, University/College ain’t gonna pay itself.
#4 | Aspiration – Work HARD
I know I am a super lazy person and I have embraced that by now. Luckily for me I can still get good grades even with my procrastination habits. This year I am going to try my absolute hardest to get the best grades I can. Honour roll here I come.
#5 | Fear – Figuring out this whole school after high school thing.
Oh the wonderful thing called college/university. What does relieve the stress a little bit is the fact that I will be taking a year off after high school to travel for modelling, and to find work. But choosing a career that I want to do successfully for a long period of time is stressful AF. Also it is really hard to find schools for what I want to to do (Production design) that are close or that don’t cost an overly large amount.
#6 | Aspiration – Join a club /… wait for it… sports team.
Now anyone that knows me knows that I hate sports. I don’t like how competitive large groups of people can get and I just don’t see the point. But this will hopefully be the year I join something. Also just participation in school activities in general, watching football games, going to dances, etc. Gonna get over my stupid fear of people and do it haha.
#7 | Fear – Stress.
I am somebody that is prone to stress and anxiety, even if its just something like I need to call someone today, it takes everything in me not to just curl up into a ball right there. So obviously the overall stress of senior year is definitely not something I am looking forward to.
#8 | Aspiration – Hang out with friends.. ALOT.
Obviously this is going to be a little tricky seeing as all of them have jobs, and I should have one soon enough but we are going to make this work. So wether that is making plans weeks ahead or just showing up to their house unexpectedly at 2 am…hehe
#9 | Fear – Forgetting and leaving behind what I love to do.
I am a horrible person when it comes to this type of stuff. I absolutely love blogging, youtube, reading, and art but I am worried this huge stack of homework coming my way will prevent me from doing those things.
#10 | Aspiration – Filling this blog/youtube channel with all of the memories.
I swear to you this is gonna be the year where you are gonna get spammed with everything I have to offer. I am going to be working me butt off trying to stick with this and show ya’ll I am no quitter when it comes to blogging. So look out because Lauryn is going on a blogging rampage.
Alright well I hope you liked this post, for some reason it took me 2 hours to write, damn you procrastination haha.