Lets start off by saying that this rough patch in your life does not define you. Not in any way.
It may seem incredibly cheesy to read but in fact this little blip in the time span of your life is gonna seem like nothing years down the line.
I probably know exactly how your feeling. Whether it be some major bomb just dropped unexpectedly or a its just a combination of a bunch of shitty shit.
Personally the past year has been pretty hard. I’ve just graduated high school knowing I was taking a gap year full of the unknown instead of following my friends off to college/university. I’ve only been able to see them about 3 times since the end of the summer due to everyone being busy. I currently live approximately 6600km from my boyfriend which means a lottttt of alone time and Skype dates (which are definitely not as good as the real thing). Andddd when I thought I was getting a little bit of my life together and had a schedule to get me out of the house, I get let go from my job. (Just a short summary of a long rant that no one needs nor wants to hear haha)
So yeah i’m kinda hitting a rough patch right now.
If you’re feeling anything like I do you’re probably thinking why me? What am I going to tell people? What can I do now?
Honestly i’m gonna be very blunt. We both got to cut this freaking shit out. Feeling sorry for ourselves, sitting in our room watching Netflix or avoiding human interaction isn’t going to change anything. TBH I’ve just come to this conclusion last week (which is pretty sad it took me that long). I complain and complain that I have no motivation to do anything and for me thats a side effect of this rough patch.
To me the one quote though that really makes me question everything I do or feel in life is this one by Karen Lamb.
“A year from now you’re going to wish you started today.”
When I look back a year from now I don’t want to think about how I was moping around feeling sorry for myself. I want to think that today was a day that contributed to where I am a year from now. I could have been plotting a new book, writing a post, or even something simple like learning new recipes that will help me when I realize I really don’t know how to cook (I actually suck lol).
So recently i’ve started to take a breather, clear anything out of my mind or of my space that doesn’t make me happy and only taking in what does. Although it’s hard sometimes to think of the positive over the negative it is very needed and it does its job.
I’m a list person so I have notebooks and journals filled front to back with whatever is on my mind. So putting down what is making me so upset and then writing everything that I’m happy, thankful, and excited for is something that that majorly calms me. All the scary is out in front of me.
So I thought to completely even out this post, I would share an example of..
↠I’m breathing (thats kinda important)
↠I have a roof over my head.
↠I have saved enough to visit my boyfriend for the holidays so this way he gets to put up with the annoying me in person instead of over the internet.
↠I have amazing beautiful sassy best friends that I love more than anything even when they’re busy with their own lives haha.
↠I get to now write for my local magazine, one step closer to conde nast haha, baby steps.
↠I have started filming more of my days with my sister and posting them each month online to my youtube. Very cute to look back on.
↠I have an awesome friend, mentor, and agent that is a fellow unicorn lover like me <3
↠I have a pile of books I haven’t read yet that will keep me occupied for years haha.
↠I have my sister to sing and play guitar with me when I get down or bored. She’s pretty cool 😉
I hope in someway this motivates you to not think too much about the bad but instead allow you to focus on the good and how you are going to get yourself together and kick some ass.
Have a lovely week guys!